I have started this post so many times over the last few weeks, then deleted it again.
The last couple of weeks have been difficult. First bad news about a friend that knocked me for six, then problems of my own. Determination to keep my food diary going has gone by the wayside, and although I have logged on and read posts, I have been unable to comment, so my apologies for my neglect.
A few weeks back, while hubby and I were away, my knee cap locked a couple of times, although it unlocked pretty quickly. I didn't think much of it as this has been happening on and off all my life, so it is something I am pretty much used to and not too concerned about. There can be pain, though for the most part it is quite painless, or I have a high pain threshold!
Then last Friday it got worse. I woke up and went to get out of bed to get ready for work, when I found that I couldn't put my foot to the ground at all, the pain was unbearable and it was clear that my knee had locked in the night. It took a while, about half and hour, before I was able to walk on that leg and it hurt. By this time it had unlocked, but I wasn't happy with how my knee cap looked, in fact it did look a little displaced, almost like it had slipped out to one side.
I know from experience that walking around, normally, usually helps to get that particular joint working again and so I did that, then got my son out of bed to take me to work, convinced that if i keep moving, my knee would get better and the pain would ease.
How stupid can I be.
By 11am I was in pain, my knee cap was swollen, I couldn't put any weight on that leg at all, as it felt as though my knee cap wouldn't hole me up. I was very painful.
My son picked me up from work and took me straight to A&E where I was taken to a consultation room. the female doctor there, looked at my leg, pushed my knee cap causing me to yelp, moved my leg up and down, ran her finger down my leg asking me if I could feel it, which I could, then asked me to bend it. She then said "oh you have torn the ligaments in the kneecap, take ibuprofen, and keep moving". She then asked me what I did for a living and once I had told her dismissed me telling me if it got worse I should see my doctor. Hmmm trying to get an appointment is something short of a miracle unless I am already dead.
So home I come, ice my knee, elevate it, then research torn ligaments, where almost most of the websites tell me this can only be diagnosed once a scan has been performed, something which wasn't done. Also most sporting situations, mainly contact sports, can cause torn ligaments, something which I do not do.
I sat and cried. I spent most of the weekend in pain and tears. The swelling didn't go down until yesterday and I have been unable to walk properly in over a week. I have tried to keep to my healthy eating plan but have felt totally lost not doing the exercise, something I have to do in order to lose weight. So yes I have been feeling pretty low about it all.
I still have no idea what has caused this. My knee is still tender, even if the swelling is less. I am not a happy person at all. I have, however, been recommended a physiotherapist, who has agreed to see me tomorrow, so I am hoping that I find some answers to my condition and that he is able to help me get back into the exercising again.
So that is me and where I am at right now. I know it isn't as serious as some are going through, but for me it is a big deal especially when I was doing so well. It is just a set back, but to me it feels a little more than that.
Silly I know!